Wake up, Dr. Teoh

"You know, it is very dangerous to go outside here in Australia," I said.

He looked at me with his usual sceptical look, thinking that he is braver than I am. Afterall he is the eldest. The place was purple and pastel blue. The floor carpeted completely with each room beautifully furnished. Each room was placed far from each other and the hallway was wide enough for two cars to drive through. Then I saw my friends sitting in the lobby or a common room of some sort. The "foyer" was properly decorated too and the upper floors which included pool tables, a bowling alley, arcades and many more fun stuff can be seen from here. Outside it was a long straight road, a dusty one delimited by endless orange desert on both sides.

Then I woke up.

I realised that everything here is the same. I realised I don't want to be here today. I don't want to walk the same path I have taken or breathe the same air I had yesterday. I want to be somewhere else. I want to be someone else.

I took an entire day off, contemplating about life, yes, again. But when I recieved a mail from my friend everything changed. He proposed a Mega Reunion. I don't even know why or what made me think differently, suddenly. I realised I am here, I am who I am, I am doing what I am doing because I want to. No one forced me to come here and study medicine. It was no one's dream I am living but my own. Yet I have dreams of being some where else. At the same time I realised the dream of being some where else is a reminder of why I am here, the ultimate reason- my personal dream.

I am living a dream right now. I have always wanted to wear the white lab coat. I have always wanted to become a doctor, and go through all the stages of being a doctor, like being a medical student. I am already here, in my dream, living it. What else do I want? A new dream? No. I need to live it fully.

I just finished replying my friend, and I sheepishly wrote:

Yours sincerely,
DR K M TEOH MD (RUSSIA)

I deleted it off though, knowing the fact that I am not yet a doctor, 5 more years to go. But I am still proud. I have decided to sit back and enjoy the ride. Afterall I am going to be Dr. K. M. Teoh M.D. (RUSSIA).